Not too sure what to think

I took Kenny to the ER today. He's been having his eyes going downward, looking like a sunset at times. And after talking to a friend whose daughter has hydrocepholous and the symptoms, I decided to take him in. He's been acting strange these past couple of days. Puking more, (even though he's on reflux meds), crabby when he's up, waking up crying like someone has just pinched him, and just not himself. The dr in the ER said that he looks fine, and we upped his reflux meds. I somehow am not convinced. I guess I'm just too worried now. I'm not that kind of parent to be paranoid though. So when I do worry, I know that most would have had their kid in ten times faster than me....well that's not really true, but you get the idea. I don't run to the dr with every runny nose. I go when the kids need to, or my 'mother's' instinct tells me, OK GO!!! I'll try to sleep these next two nites, and hopefully things will be better tomorrow.

So far so good!

Courtney is absolutly enthralled with her new little brother. All she talks about it 'baby' 'baby' 'baby'!! Here's a couple of pic's of the two of them. She even likes to share tummy time with him...lol.

Things ain't goin too badly!

It's been two nites having Kenny home now. It's been wonderful. I'm not crabby from being up with the newborn yet...ask me in a few days...lol. He seems to want to be up at nite, but not in a bad way. He feeds and then just wants to check everything out...lol. So it's not like he's up every hour or anything like that. The adjustment for the rest of the kids is going well. Kristen has gotten over herself and smiles at him now. We are so blessed to have such beautiful wonderful children. I can't wait until Kenny is older toddling around with the others!!

We are home now!!

He's home, he's home, he's home!! Kenny came home today! After 47 days we are now complete! The welcome home for him went well. Joe is so excited and watches him every second! Kristen, well not so much! She is so upset that someone else is on my lap now!!! Oh well, she'll get used to it soon enough!

We're getting close...I think

It's been 55 hours since Kenny has had a brady. I'm wondering if I'm going to get to bring him home tomorrow, or if the Dr will wait until Tues. I'm afraid to ask!!! I don't want to jinx things. I must say that things are soooo ready for him here that it's rediculas. He's one week away from his due date today. It's just been such a roller coaster this last week and a half. Not the coaster ride that I had expected to ride, but a ride none the less. I wake up everyday just thinking positive.

Another Baby Earned his wings

It makes me sad to have to say another baby has earned his angel wings. CDH is such an awful birth defect! I know how blessed that I am that all of my children are here and with me....difficulties, challenges, and all. I don't ever take for granted how lucky I am. Please keep baby Vincent in your prayers! http://babyboyserna.blogspot.com/

He's due in 9 days

Kenny is due in 9 days and he's still in the hospital. They did the EEG yesterday and we're still awaiting the results. I'm going to meet with the dr tonite when I go into visit to see what the plan is. I don't want to take him home if he's not ready, but I need to know what's going on. He went 2.5 days without a Brady, and then yesterday just after I laid him down to sleep, Yep, you guessed it he had one! I just feel like there are so many unanswered questions. And I just feel like I'm at my wits end sometimes. I'm positive and ready to move forth in his therapy when he comes home. The initial blow has now seemed to have passed, and I just want to be done with the NICU, and start our lives together as a big family. Kenny just turned 6 weeks old yesterday, and I had no idea that this is the way the rollercoaster was going to ride.

I feel like when I'm in a group of people with kids, that I'm now the mom that's like..."oh ya my kid has that" "yep feeding issues, been there too" "developmental delay's, ya that too"!! It's a bit of a joke, like I'm trying to make things up for my kids to have and the actual fact is that they DO have it!!! There are at times som many things running through my head that while I'm just having a normal conversation with people, the thoughts are louder than the conversation. I hope that they will get quieter, and things will settle out, and that I can create a sense of normalcy in our house.